I've strayed away from God too long!

 I'm sooo tired of being angry and lately seems like I can't catch a break.  Mentally I have secluded myself from my family and friends.  The smile you see is not because I'm happy or enjoying the moment; it's because I'm scared to reveal my pain or hurt.  I feel like I can't trust anyone - at times I just need to call a friend and just vent without them giving me their thoughts or perspective on the situation...just shut up and allow me to speak and just listen; is that asking too much???  My question to you is "What do you do when you feel you have strayed away from God too long?"

I know that God is a forgiving God and he will never leave or forsake me - but I feel like I have strayed away from him too long to be on his priority list.  My grandmother always told me that God is in your heart you just celebrate him in a building.  I took her saying and ran with it - when I actively attended church I felt embrace by God and the spirit that took over the building.  I felt protected with GOD'S LOVE!

Lately it's been a struggle to go back to church.  I love my pastor and his
teachings even though I don't agree with everything that is said or taught and that's ok.  Overall, he is a great messenger of delivering God's messages.  People tend make the statement that "The Devil is Busy", my take on this is, everything can't be blamed on the devil.  I feel like those who have been so called "SAVED" has a Godly conscious which allows you to have a relationship with God himself.  The spirit didn't hit you by accident nor were you forced to make the walk to be delivered.  A spirit presented itself within you and you chose to say "GOD! HERE I AM!"

I know my relationship with God and I can't speak for others but I know God gave me a conscious - When I know I'm doing something I'm not suppose to I  feel guilty.  When I'm doing something right or pleasing I'm rewarded and/or doors are opened that I didn't expect to be unlocked.  God works in amazing ways and I know this.  I know I'm a child of God and honestly I'm only able to stray so far before I feel him pulling at my shoulder asking me "Where do I think I'm Going???"  So everything is not the devils doing: it's your guilty conscious.

I make up sooooo many excuses for not going or making it to church on time - but yet I make it a priority to get up for work on time and going about my day without any excuses.  The MIND is a powerful tool.  Your BRAIN controls your body.  Everything we do or think is processed by the brain which signals the body to process what you are feeding into it.  For example if you tell yourself you don't feel good guess what you don't and all of a sudden you start to feel sick.  When you feel positive energy into your brain you get positive results and when you feed negativity into your brain well you get it I hope.

As I'm sitting here typing this I'm starting to feel like somewhat of a burden has been lifted off my spirit.  For those that know me well writing has always been my outlet and my way of venting.  Initially, I grabbed my laptop for this to be a very nasty and angry posting.  I wanted to cuss and fuss and rant about how I hated those who hurt me and the stress I am currently dealing with in regards to some personal things that are going on right now.

Lyfe sung it best!!!!!  Check it out!

When you are doing something new or for the first time you're initially hesitant or a little scared because you don't want to mess up sort of speak.  Lord knows that I'M learning to obtain something that you never had -you have to do something that you never did.  In the process I'm questioning relationships - My granny always tell me "Everyone you want to be your friend don't want to be friends with you".  The older I get the more I take heed to that statement.

I feel soo much better as I bring this posting to a close.  I'm glad I didn't allow my emotions to cause me to embarrass myself and post something I would later regret allowing negative thoughts and emotions to have control over me.  However, I continue to struggle with my relationship with God.  I know he HE LOVES ME!!!!! I struggle with the pressure of having to be this person of perfection and walk the walk of a so called CHRISTIAN.  I'm sure many will not view this post - but's its ok.  I know someone is going through a similar situation and this posting will find it's way!

~Who Soever Will - Let them Come~

Double Dose of Pink Sin - Sinful Colors

I am sooo in love with the lip gloss I can't help but to be a little bourgeois when I put it on...it's Puck Up Baby by SinfulColors which was recently bought out by Revlon.  "Did I say I was in LOVE with this Lip Gloss...LOL".  It's really light and not thick at all and the pigmentation is wonderful.  You only need one swipe across the bottom lip to obtain a full opaque lip...I think this is my favorite to date and for $2.99 you can't go wrong purchasing this product - heck I wouldn't be surprised if the price went up due to the quality of this little jewel.  If I'm not mistaken I believe they have about five or six other colors.  You can view other colors by viewing Shades of Beauty Blog click here.

Another pink favorite of mine is SinfulColors Forget Now which a a pretty rich pink shimmer polish which is totally awesome....I can't say enough about these two....the only thing I will say is grab them both.

I'm Out!!!!!!!!!

Island Coral and Rally Pretty Pink

Two pretty complimentary colors...OPI- Rally Pretty Pink and Sinful Colors- Island Coral.  I sooo love the color combinations with these two.  I don't know why it make me want sushi but it does.  Rally Pretty Pink sort of set the tone...its such a lovely duo chrome interchanging between gold purple and sort of a mauve pink.

Island Coral reminds me of salmon and lobster or is it that I'm just hungry.  Well I gotta go and get my food out of the microwave now and prepare for tomorrows work day and also do my nails tonight because they look absolutely horrid and neglected.

Toodles!!!!!

Two Coats (2) plus Top Coat (TC)

What up Holmes...What up Essie

Well today is going to be a real simple post...I'm not feeling my best right now so I don't really have much to write about - well actually I do but there's not enough hours remaining in the day so I'll pass.

Anyway, I am currently on a polish strike but I so want these metallic mirror effect polishes by Essie - so if yo want to be kind to me and sort of cheer me up just let me know and I will forward you my shipping address...HA!!!!! WHO AM I KIDDING, if only if was that simple right.

So anyway here we have it....

Good As Gold










No Place Like Chrome













Blue Rhapsody












Nothing Else Metals









Penny Talk









If you want now you can order this collection here they are currently selling for
$5.95 for .05oz bottle but you have to hurry they sell out pretty quick.  I love Trans Design...now you now you know where I order my polishes from.

Happy Shopping!!!!!!

What the E.L.F. is that???

 Well who would have Thunk-it (ebonically speaking)!  Walgreens is slowly winning me over with the broadening of their cosmetic and beauty products particularly the one located on 55th Lake Park (Hyde Park-Chicago, IL) and this time was no different.

I originally went in during my lunch break to see if they had the Fergie Collection by Wet-N-Wild and not to my surprise they did - but I ended up not getting anything because I pretty much had all the colors and nothing really stood out to me.  However, I did end up picking up Leap Frog by Sinful Colors which will be in another post.

Well anyway I went back again after work and came across what I thought I was reading wrong but it was in fact true; they had E.LF. Cosmetics 5 piece lip gloss set and a 32 piece eye shadow kit in warm.  The other thing that smacked me in the face and made me blush was that the price was only $5 bucks for each kit.

I hurried up and snatched the eye shadow kit because it was the one left.  I usually don't get the last of anything because I feel like it's picked over- but oh well it turned out fine.

I love warm palettes because they are neutral colors and you can pretty much pair them with any outfit.

Below are more pictures - I will swatch them later but the few that I did were very pigmented and didn't seem to be chalky at all.

Now on the lip gloss - this is going to be really quick because I am a rambler and I tend to keep going and going and going....LOL.

I can say that I actually like the lip gloss and the consistency.  It' not to thin or too thick and it doesn't coat up on your lips to the point where you have what I call Muppet strings forming on your lips while you're talking.

I like these better than M.A.C. (boy I can see yall heads turning on that one). I don't know what up with the M.A.C. Lip Glass but it leaves a white coating and gritty mess on my lips after a couple hours of wear.  My hand downs favorite gloss would be Mary Kay Moisture Shine glosses they are absolutely wonderful and pigmented  The colors in the set from left to right are:

• Pink Pop (it's more a nude color) 
• Flirt - Pretty pink
• Guava - Coral tint
• Houston - Mauve
• Cherry - A sheer red

The only one I've tried so far is Flirt and I loved it on my lips...most of these I will be pairing over a lipstick an the smell of them all are wonderful.  They are buildable with the exception of Cherry.  I will be sure to update you all as I wear them.

Well I've given you more than enough to read but if you run across these in Walgreens be sure to pick them up.  Oh yeah prices may differ between Walgreens - I had to throw that in there.

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